Thursday, December 31, 2015

I'm wishing you all a very happy, healthy prosperous 2016. I truly hope everyone will be healthy and happy all year long. My paperwork has been completed and mailed and I hope that is all of it. I was really overwhelmed with all that had to be done. My girlfriend has invited me to her house for New Years Eve but I want to stay in tonight. I'm just not ready to party and we have stayed home for the last few years so this will be normal for me. I hope you will all be safe and careful tonight but enjoy the evening.

I want to share this gift that I received. It came the day of the viewing for Bill and I can't tell you how touched I was and how much I cried. The card is just lovely and the Prayer Shawl is simply beautiful. The written verse inside the card had brought me such comfort and love. The Shawl wraps me in God's love and comforts me so very much. It is just stunning in variegated shades of blue with gorgeous fringe along the bottom. It is such a treasured possession and the picture doesn't do it the justice it deserves. Be kind to one another.



Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Mother Nature sure has a way about her to slow you down. I went to my son's for Christmas and we had such a nice time. Saturday morning at 1 am I started in with many, many bathroom trips. I thought it was probably from eating things I don't normally eat. I became so dehydrated I called my girlfriend at 5 am and she took me to the ER. They started a glucose drip for me and I had several tests and a CAT scan of the stomach. I had a lot of irration but nothing serious. They said just stay on the BRAT diet and it was most likely the 24 virus going around. They had seen a lot of it. I took it easy on Sunday and just watched football and ate lightly. The Brat diet doesn't really contain food. Monday I didn't really feel that well and was still pretty weak from not eating much. Monday night I began vomiting. Seems I had gone through both types of the virus. Some had the bathroom visits and some vomited. I was lucky enough to do both. I slept a lot each day, then slept all night except for little visits. So I have done nothing for four days, literally. Today I've had banannas, chicken noodle soup, applesauce and jello along with Sprite. It was a feast. I hope it is not going around where you are. One more Christmas card. Then I want to share the beautiful cards I've received in the mail. They are all the most beautiful cards I've ever seen. Be kind to one another.


Friday, December 25, 2015

Merry, Merry Christmas to you all. I hope you have a wonderful holiday with your families. Our sons and their families came here yesterday and we did have a nice time. It was sad without Bill but I know he was here with us. Today Molly and I will go to our son's for an open house. It is always fun because I get to see their friends and family. This was my goal for now, to get through Christmas. I have a lot of paperwork things to do next week and my thank you cards. That is the hardest thing for me. I have set down several times to start them. When I think of how kind everyone has been it brings me to tears and I just can't do it yet. I teared up just now typing this. Be kind to each other.




Saturday, December 19, 2015

We have gone from extremely warm to extremely cold! Luckily no snow or heavy rain for this time of  year so I count us grateful.  I got all my errands done this past week and now want to concentrate on getting the house in order, tree up and presents wrapped. Today I do NOT plan to get in the car for anything. I feel like I'm spent the last two months in the car.

I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for the comments, prayers, phone calls and beautiful cards I've received during this sad time. It has truly touched my heart and I am so lucky to have you as my friends. I have some new ladies in the UK that I want to visit after the holidays that were sweet enough to send me good wishes as well. Our time is precious right now with Christmas right around the corner and none of us are spending as much time on the computer as usual so that makes it so much more special that you would come by.

I will be getting Christmas cards out but they are old ones I made when I was starting out or from SU classes and they will most likely be late. But I want you to know I'm thinking of you. This picture is of a plant I received from a dear friend who did not know hubby had passed. She felt so bad that she wasn't there. It was delivered from the florist and it is a three foot tall calla lily. It's kinda of big! Also another card for you. Be kind to one another.



Tuesday, December 15, 2015

It's funny how quickly we have to go back to our regularly scheduled lives. This week will be a whirlwind just when I thought things would settle down. Yesterday I Christmas shopped for the first time this year. I did get quite a bit done in several hours plus the grocery store. I did that on no breakfast as I was out of food! Today Molly goes to the vet that I have been putting off because of hubby. Tomorrow I go back to the cemetery as they want their money. (Grinches) Thursday I will try to finish the shopping and Friday I go to Social Security. I hope to decorate in the evenings and do the thank you cards. I have Christmas cards I have made in the past and in an Online Class and will use those. As I post some pictures of them they may be cards I've had on my blog before. There just is a time crunch right now. Molly and I are getting along. I think because there is so much to do and I haven't come to terms yet since hubby's passing was so unexpected to happen that quickly. I'm glad to keep busy. Be kind to one another and say I love you everyday.




Sunday, December 13, 2015

One more post, then I hope to be making cards again. The funeral was a wonderful tribute to my dear husband. It is such a sad occasion but it is so nice to see so many people that you haven't seen in a long time and meet work people I've only heard about through him. Also met a lot of the grandchildren's friends and both of my sons bosses and work people. How kind everyone was.  It is pretty overwheming at the time and seems like they all come at once so you have a very long line. Saturday was a pretty hard day. You know you are saying goodbye. So many more people that weren't there Friday and many who were. The priest led the service and our son Brian spoke. It was just beautiful and celebrated Bill's life. Then Lauren spoke and cried. Then Mitch. It was a while before he could begin to speak because of the tears. It was truly heartbreaking and there wasn't a dry eye when he finally got through it. He had to stop so many times and Lauren was right beside him and she was crying as well. I don't know how they did it. I know Bill knows how much he was loved. The younger grands just cried. We got to the veteran's section of the cementery and the Marines were there and ready. Listening to Taps while they removed the flag from the casket and folded it was a very emotional time for all of us. We went to my niece's afterwards and visited. Even the weather was good. It got up to 70 which is just unheard of here for December. It was overcast but still warm. This is the picture we chose for the folders as it really looks like him. The tux picture was not his everyday look. Thanks again for all the prayers for us. We could feel them and they helped us get through this sad, emotional time. Be as kind to each other as you have been to me.



Friday, December 11, 2015

It's so nice to see some new faces in my comments and I thank you all so dearly for coming by. Soon I will visit you and say hello. Thank you all my friends for the support and caring you have shown as my family has traveled this time with Bill. He was a good, good man and wonderful dad and grandpa and the best husband a gal could ask for. We hope to do him proud with his funeral. I love you all. Be kind to one another.

Billy J. Wilkinson

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Billy J. Wilkinson

70, passed away Dec. 9, 2015. He was born in Beech Grove, IN to the late Phillip and Maxine Wilkinson. Bill retired as a foreman from Storms-McMullen Electric. He was a Marine Corps Veteran serving in Vietnam. Bill had a passion for golf and was a very loving husband, father and grandfather.

He is survived by his loving wife of 48 years Brenda Wilkinson; sons Brian (Angie) Wilkinson, and Travis (Elizabeth) Wilkinson; grandchildren Mitchell, Lauren, Olivia, and Billy Wilkinson; and sister Sharon (Wally) Wilkerson.

Visitation will be held Friday Dec. 11th from 4:00-8:00 p.m. at Little & Sons Stop 11 Chapel. Funeral Services will be held Saturday Dec. 12th at 10:30 a.m. in the funeral home with visitation one hour prior to the time of service. Burial will follow at Forest Lawn Cemetery, Greenwood. The family would like to thank Madison Health Care, Dr. Max Runkle & Staff and St. Francis Hospice for their caring and compassion. Memorial contributions may be made to the Wounded Warriors

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

I am so sorry to tell you my husband of 48 years passed away this morning. My oldest son and I spent the night at the nursing home because they said it would be soon. The nurses checked him at 4 am and said probably very soon and he passed at 5:21 am.  It has been a whirwind of a day with making plans, going through pictures and getting clothes ready. Also need to make calls tomorrow and visit the cementary. I am so tired already from not sleeping last night and am ready to drop into bed soon. Be kind to one another.

Saturday, December 5, 2015

All the family was with us Thursday night and hubby talked and talked. I was so very happy the grandchildren got to talk to him. Our oldest grandson was just devasted. He had the closest relationship with his grandpa as he was the oldest and we were able to spend so much time with him when he was young. We couldn't understand everything he said but some things came through loud and clear and we would laugh. Friday hubby slept all day.

First picture is our oldest grandddaughter with him, then oldest son on Wed. night and a picture I was able to get of him smiling Thursday. Be kind to one another.








Wednesday, December 2, 2015

The hospital called this morning and said hubby had been discharged back to the nursing home. He is no longer a psychiatric patient and not combative. They said to get in touch with hospice. The hospice guy came this afternoon and got us started. Hubby knew who we were and he talked the entire day. Constantly, the whole time and when I left tonight he was still talking. The boys and I got a kick out of him. No matter what happens we had this great day with him. Hospice said 5 to 7 days. No one knows for sure about these things but he is not eating or drinking anything. I tried to get chocolate pudding down and some ice cream and no go. He pushes your hand away and gets mad at you. It was a hard day and seemed to come out of the blue that he was back here. We were planning on a meeting up at the hospital instead. I will be taking a break for a while and going to spend all my time at the NH with him. When they start him on his meds he will most likely be sleeping a lot but I want to be there.

Thank you all for the love, prayers and comfort you have sent me. I love you all and will try to update in the evenings.

Hugs,
Brenda

Monday, November 30, 2015

We are on the downslope of our roller coaster ride with DH.  Boys and I went yesterday to celebrate DH's birthday.  They called me when we were on the way and said he was dehydrated again and shaking. When we got there he was sound asleep and we could not wake him up. They had increased his dosage from .05 to .1 and instead of decreasing the three times a day it was now increased to four times. They said he had been awake all morning and was alert. Then his B/P dropped and heart rate went up and they are going to start him on an IV. Today they called me and said his vitals are good now and he is much better. He is off the meds as of today because he has the start of pneumonia so he's on an antibotic.  I don't know what to think. He is not eating or drinking and is losing weight. This is a short term facility and I don't know how much longer he can stay there. I asked the nurse to have the Dr. call me. I have a lot of questions as to where we are going. I don't know if they can help him. The nursing home is still holding his bed.  I also have a call in to the financial dept. of both places. I need to know if insurance is paying or am I. I am very unstable right now. I just can't seem to get it together.  I went to the grocery store and right in the aisle I started crying.

My sister in law called this morning and my BIL is in the hospital with blood clots in his lungs. They will keep him several days and get those dissolved. Boy when it rains, it pours. I hope they can get him fixed up and back home soon. She is already going through this with her brother.

Today is Molly's birthday, she is seven. She had a french fry as a treat instead of frozen green beans. She has made this pillow her own and always sleeps on it. Be kind to one another.




Thursday, November 26, 2015

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone today. I am so thankful for all of you that come to visit and leave such uplifting comments. We saw hubby yesterday and he has started on new meds. When we came in his face lit up and we got a big smile. Then he looked at me and said "I love you". Oh my. He said it several times while we were there. I couldn't have a more blessed Thanksgiving. He made us laugh out loud with his facial expressions and some of the things he said. My favorite is about the exercise ball. They toss it to him and he tosses it back as exercise. He told us that lady throws that thing at him and he said "I throw it right back at her"! We enjoyed this visit so very much. I hope this works. They give it three times a day and want to cut down to twice a day. They are very conservative about meds and want the smallest dosage possible that works.

I made another card for Thanksgiving. It is Lawn Fawn mice and a Spellbinders die for the frame. Enjoy the day, love each other and don't eat too much.


Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Today is the last day that our family doctor is here. He is retiring and it is so hard to say goodbye. We have been with him for over 30 years and he is the most caring, compassionate person. It's hard to start over with someone who hasn't been along with us on this journey but the new Dr. won't be taking care of hubby, only me. That should keep him busy enough! This is the card I made for him. It is an NBUS stamp from Cornish Heritage Farms called  The Saturday Evening Post Common Cold. That's how long I've had it! The date on the back is 2009. It was kind of hard to color since some of the images are so small. I love the hot water bottle and his feet in hot water. People today might not know what a hot water bottle is.  The inside says "will be missed". Be kind to one another.


Sunday, November 22, 2015

Oh my, it is so cold here. We had a beautiful snowfall yesterday. It didn't really stick but it was fat, gorgeous flakes that came down so fast. I went to GS's basketball game that was so exciting. They lost by one point but the game was great to watch. Today I plan to watch football and do laundry. I need to catch up with things around here so I can start my Christmas cards. I've done no shopping and don't have a clue what I want to get for anyone. I can't actually believe it is almost here. Where did this year go?

At our visit to DH Friday the nurse came out and told us he was having a bad day. He had been shaking and picking all morning when she came in. We were taken back to his room, which was a first, to see him. He was sound asleep and did not wake up while we were standing around his bed talking. I know they are doing their best and it takes time so I am trying not to get upset. I can only hope he won't remember them taking blood tests every day and giving him shots to get his meds in him.

It is exciting to have a family of coyotes in our field but I am always worried for Molly. Every time she goes out I check the yard. At night I scan the yard and field with my huge flashlight before she can go out. I have to do that anyway because for some reason there are bunnies inside our fence. I have to chase them out before she can go outside.

I got another card made. Very simple with just SU burlap ribbon, a die cut leaf and some dew drops. Brushed the leaf ends with ink and added a sentiment by SU. Be kind to one another.




Tuesday, November 17, 2015

The boys and I went to see DH yesterday. We met with the Dr.'s assistance as he was called away while we were on our way there. Said DH would be there at least seven more days. Because of his health problems, heart, TIA's, fatty liver, kidney problems (first I've heard of this) and so on they couldn't start decreasing his meds right away. He has to have three good days with no aggression or combativeness before he can go back. She said he had a good weekend. Then we went in to see him. He was slumped over the side of the recliner chair picking at the side of the chair. There was no recognition of us, nothing he said made any sense and most of the time they weren't words. He shook the entire time. He was combative when the nurses lifted him back up and propped him up. They took him off a lot of the meds and we have to wonder if it was cold turkey. Clonazepam is one you should not just suddenly stop. He looked like he was coming off drugs and having a violent reaction. It was a brutal visit and we were totally unprepared after hearing he had a good weekend. I have a call in this morning to speak to her again. She also said that the Lisinipro he was on probably caused the kidney issues. He was not on that drug, so another question for her.

The day before yesterday I had Molly out and was waiting for her to come in when out of the corner of my eye I spotted our coyote. He was standing perfectly still and watching the dogs in the yard to the north of us. He was like a statue so I went and got my camera and was able to get a few pictures. As I was ready to come in the house, a small baby coyote came out of the weeds, followed  by a really big one. OMG, a family! I didn't get pictures because they ran into the weeds and were gone. These pictures were taken from our sun porch and they were just on the other side of the fence. That is the neighbors rain gauge that is in the picture and our black chain link fence. Be kind to one another.




Saturday, November 14, 2015

Prayers going out for Paris. When will this end?

The hospital called us Wed. night and said they had to adjust DH meds because he said he was going to shoot them. So he's not quite there yet. My sil and I went yesterday to see him. We were in a different room this time and they brought him in first, then came and got us. He was in a wheelchair this time and he was dressed. I don't know whose clothes they were as the nursing home didn't send any clothes with him. He smiled again when he saw me. He talked the entire time we were there but it was in a loop. Same stories over and over but he talked and stayed awake the whole time and seemed more alert than last time. My sons and I have a meeting with his doctor there on Monday. We have some questions about treatment and what they expect.

I made this card for Thanksgiving using a Cuttlebug embossing folder, Lawn Fawn mice and glitter paper for the pumpkin. The background is DCWV paper. I inked over the e/f to make it visible.  I didn't make fall cards like I thought I would. I still have hopes to get started. Be kind to one another.


Tuesday, November 10, 2015

The place was like a fortress. We had to leave all contraband in the car (which turned out to be my purse) and go through three locked doors to get in. We signed in and a nurse used a card to swipe the doors for us to go through. They took us to a windowless room with three chairs like you see in a cafeteria. Then they wheeled him in. He sits is a leather recliner with drop trays on both sides and it is on rollers. He has not walked since being brought in. He is on an IV because he was dehydrated. I leaned over him and said a soft hi. He focused on me for a minute, then his face broke out in a huge smile. He said "I haven't seen you in a long time". I tear up as I type this. He told us a story about something that happened at work many years ago and repeated it over about 5 times. That was okay. Then he told us his wife left him there and took everything! He did fall asleep for about 5 minutes while we were there, then woke up and said he was tired. Before we left he looked at me and said "You can come back anytime". He did not really know who we were but it was okay for us to be there. He didn't seem drugged but any question we asked he said he didn't know or couldn't remember. He didn't ask us where he was or for us to get him out.

I can't tell you how nervous the boys and I were. We talked about it on the way there. I felt like I would throw up all day. When he smiled at me all that feeling fell away and I was at peace. I hope that will continue. I had it in my mind that they would make him all better and he would come home but now I see that won't happen. It's time for our new reality. I can only hope he will be as sweet when he comes back to the nursing home. I don't know if they will be able to do physical therapy when he gets back since he hasn't walked in so long. He may be in a wheelchair from now on. I wanted to tell you all how it went because you have all been so kind and caring. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am still not quite in the new place yet until he comes back and gets used to the nursing home. Then I will be okay. Yesterday went a long way to calming me down. I just needed to see him. Be kind to one another.

Sunday, November 8, 2015

I made a card. It's very basic but I do like it. Lawn Fawn paper with a strip cut from designer paper of acorns. I sponged DI on paper and punched the leaves from an EK punch. Then Versamark ink and UTEE. The sentiment is DeNami.

I call the hospital every day and found that DH is off nine meds and has been given something to help with the aggression. He's not eating a lot but is awake and in the common area. He is not talking, but is watching everyone.  The boys and I are going to visit tomorrow. I'm very nervous and hope he will not want us to take him home. If we can just talk to him instead of him getting so upset that will be great. It sounds like he is just so confused about where he is and what is happening to him. We'll see what happens.  Be kind to one another.


Thursday, November 5, 2015

Today hubby is being transfered to a psychiatric hospital about an hour away from here. They feel they can help him get rid of the hostility and anger. At first I was resistant but I do see the value in the treatment for him and if it can help it will be worth it. They did get him to the dining room Tues. night. I hate that he is just getting used to that place and they are going to move him to a new facility with different people. It's been nine days since I've seen him. I know he wonders where I am and leaving him alone is the hardest thing I've ever done. We will be able to go see him after he has been in the new hospital for a week. I'm anxious to see how he is and what he says.

I feel like my life is on hold until we get results and see what happens. I can't seem to get organized to do anything and truthfully I'm not doing anything. This week has been in the mid 70's and just lovely. I cleaned a little bit in the garage. That was always hubby's job and there are things out there that I don't even know what they are. They boys will go through that stuff.

I did send out some cards earlier in October and I have to apologize if your card came postage due. I bought a roll of stamps online from the PO that said they were forever stamps. There is no denomination on the stamp so I assumed (and you know what happens when you assume) they were just regular stamps. Only one card was returned to me from the PO with this little note below. Turns out they are not 45 cent stamps. Oops. Be kind to one another.


Monday, November 2, 2015

Just wanted to pop in and tell you SIL and I went to NH yesterday. I signed all the paperwork and we walked down to his room. The director knocked on his door and he was awake so she and SIL went in. He told the director to get out and leave him alone. SIL asked if she could stay and he said yes. He wanted to know where I was and she said I was sick and couldn't come now. She isn't sure he knew who she was but that he knew he knew her. They said he was very combative and won't settle down. Today they will get him dressed so he can go to PT. If he will. He told SIL he doesn't like all those people coming in his room. Just wants to be left alone to sleep. I will call tonight and see if he got dressed and if he went to PT. If not, he goes to a semi private room. I don't know how he will do with a room mate.

Thank you all again for your love and prayers and support. I am getting used to being here alone however I find myself having a lot of chat with the dog. It seems to be fairly one sided as she is not much of a conversationalist. She does listen though and cocks her head so she is trying. Be kind to one another.

Saturday, October 31, 2015

Yesterday was a hard, hard day. I couldn't visit with DH because all he would say was "get me out of here" and get so agitated. I sat on a bench down the hall from his room. That's where the Dr., nurse, Pallative care worker and psychistrist all came down and talked to me. I only saw him once all day. I was so nervous the whole time I was there that I could have jumped out of my skin. He was combative all night and I heard him yelling at the gals who changed his bed all the way down the hall. He was yelling and cussing at them. He hit the lift girl yesterday. He was taken to the nursing home last night at 5. That was what I was so worried aboout. I called at 10 to see how he did. He said he didn't know where he was and the nurse said he had been sleeping most of the time until they changed him. Then she told me "he didn't like that. You know what that means". So they had a hard time with him. I will go Sunday and take his other things over. I don't know if I will go see him or not. That is what is making me cry so much. I could be spending time with him but he can't get by just wanting me taking him home. That's all he said to me the whole week he was in the hospital. I just have to walk out of the room. In the NH he can just follow me out. He did stand up last night but they sat him right down again. I hope I get to see him again. The hospital suggested that I call in Hospice and I said I thought that was only for people six months out and she just nodded. Of course none of us know really but that is what they are thinking. He wasn't eating in the hospital so I'm hoping they will plop him in a wheelchair if he can't walk and take him to the dining room and put food in front of him. Maybe then he will eat. He was eating before he went to the hospital. I won't be going on about this here so much. I just can't bring myself to tell our friends yet. It is so final and heartbreaking  The boys are so supportive and you all have been too. Thanks so very much.

I did get a card made sometime, I forget when it was. Not very intricate but it did help take my mind off things. I used some pattern paper from DCWV sweater weather and cut out some leaves and inked them and put Glossy Accents on them to look like water drops.   Be kind to one another and have a Happy, safe Halloween.


Thursday, October 29, 2015

No card stuff today.

Thank you, thank you all. I was so uplifted when I got home last night and read your comments. It may be a while before I get around to your blogs. I came in last night, ate a sandwich and just sat. I talked to the boys and hubby's sister and that was pretty much it. Just drained.  The day did not go anywhere near like I expected. DH was asleep when I got there. He said "don't do this to me again, I don't like it". and went back to sleep.  The nurse came in and we talked about him. A little later the Priest came in and talked. He asked me if I had considered a feeding tube.  We talked awhile and he said a prayer with me. Then the Dr. came in. Wanted to know if DH was eating.  He did not eat any of his lunch there. Dr. wanted to know if I had considered a feeding tube. I asked why we were having this conversation. Did he think we were near the end? He said no one knows but woud I talk to the Pallative Care team. He said there comes a time when medicine doesn't help the person and there is no sense in giving it to them. So she came in and asked the same thing. We filled out some paperwork because DH has a DNR on file at the hospital. Then, if you can believe it, the social worker came in! I kinda felt bombarded. Every single person I talked to patted me on the arm I just got my flu shot in and it is sore!  I thought I would just have to console hubby but he never talked or woke up.
When I called last night before I went to bed the nurse said he ate a little dinner and was awake for a little while. They had ordered morphine for his pain and maybe that was why he was in such a deep sleep. It's hard to tell. He didn't have morphine at home and he slept all the time. I'll see how things are today.

There is a funny side to all this. It was cold and pouring down rain when I got to the lobby to leave. I had my purse, the folder Pallative Care gave me, a book (whick I never leave home without) and my umbrella. So I started out to the car and unzipped my purse to get my keys. Hung them on my thumb and zipped up my purse. Walked a few steps and realized I don't have my keys. So I started retracing my steps. A lady stopped me and asked if I was looking for my keys and I said yes. She said they just took them to the information desk inside. I thanked her and went back in. The man said they just took them to security. How efficient are they. So I trooped over there and got them. That wouldn't have been an issue except I had done my inhalers early in the morning and I could hardly breathe.  I have COPD. Once I got my keys I stopped in the lobby, put all my stuff down and did my inhaler. Then back outside I went. There, right in front of the door, was a shuttle. Oh happy day. Everyone that got on told the driver I'm in E or I'm in so and so. I didn't know there was a shuttle so I didn't know where I was! He drove right by my car on a different row and then started winding around and I really didn't  know where my car was. I was afraid we would have to go back and start over but we did finally drive by it. That was a blessing.  I didn't make a card yesterday!

I'm off to shower and get to the hospital this morning to see how he is. He is on IV antibotics for the UTI and they think he possibly has aspiration pneumonia. He has been through so many health issues in his life. I truly hate dementia. Be kind to one another.

Wednesday, October 28, 2015





It is with a sad and heavy heart that I tell you hubby is in the hospital and when he is released he will go directly to the nursing home. The above pictures are how he has been this whole month. I think I can truly say this has been the worst month of our lives and I thank you all for being here with me.  When I got up yesterday he was on the floor of the sunroom. I don't know how long he had been there and he could not get up. The firemen came and his blood pressure was 100/40 and pulse was 167. They called the paramedics and they took him to the hospital.  They couldn't find the hernia unless it was popped out while they were checking. He had chest xray and stomach xray, a head and stomach CT scan and lots of blood work. He slept the entire day and never turned his head to see that I was there. The social worker came in to talk to me and said they could admit him to the nursing home from there when he was released. They did find he had a UTI and will keep him three days to get that under control and also cultural the bloodwork.  I have to tell you that I cried each time when I told the boys but they assured me I was doing the right thing. I know in my heart it is the best for him. He needs more care at this point than I can give him. I'm going to shower and get myself up there this morning and check on him. He will start in on me the minute I walk in the room about taking him home. I dread it. He gets so upset and angry that he is there. Maybe he will be sleeping.


Sunday, October 18, 2015

Oh my, we are in a freeze right now. It will warm up later in the week but I am just not ready for cold weather. To be honest, I never am.

This card is made with Doodlebug papers from last year, Twiggy Tree die from Memory Box and the owl is cut out from a DeNami stamp and You're a Hoot is also DeNami. The owl is popped up on the branch. The hill is Lawn Fawn. I use that expression a lot so when I saw that stamp I had to have it. Look at me use that patterned paper! I struggle with that and I do like this card.

No news on hubby. I don't have the results of ultrasound yet. Probably tomorrow. He is coming out of the funk he was in so I think the medicine is out of his system. I got powdered medicine to replace those big pills so that has helped. I have been talking with the nursing home people and my son and I are visiting them Monday afternoon. I just can't do that just yet but I do think it is coming. Speaking of the powdered medicine I have to tell you this. When I went to pick it up they gave me a month of medicine and it was $33. We usually get three months at a time of the pills and they are $184. The powder is $99. for three months. Who knew!  How do you know to ask those questions!  We have been paying $85. more forever. Maybe the pills are stronger, I don't know but they replaced them with the powder. Be kind to one another.


Monday, October 12, 2015

This is my youngest grandsons Halloween card. He is into the dark side right now! Again, I used "stuff" in my stash. It didn't make a dent in my Halloween stash at all, but I feel better using up things I already had to make these last few cards. This is My Minds Eye paper from 2012, a stamped spider from Lawn Fawn, the bat is Jolee's I think, the skull is unknown and the fright night is a sticker. The skull is covered with WOS. I can make Halloween cards for the next forty years by going to my stash! That is kind of sad that one would have so much unused stuff. But I am trying.

Update on hubby - Go Docs thinks he has an ingurinal hernia and that is what is causing him so much pain. They are going to send someone to the house to do an untra sound to determine if that's what it is. They haven't called to set up an appointment yet. I called 911 last Mon. because his leg was huge and hard and he was short of breath. Doc said that was because he missed his water pills for several days. He has been sleeping so much and just missed some and sometimes he refuses to take his meds. He would not go to the hospital so paramedics called Go Docs and they sent the doc out the next morning. So we are waiting for the ultra sound to see. He is no longer short of breath and some of the swelling has gone down. This disease causes patients to have a hard time swallowing and I think that is where we are now. He has three large pills that he is choking on. I am calling today to see if I can crush them for him. Each day seems to bring a new problem. We have reduced his halucination meds back to what they were to see if that is why he was sleeping so much but it hasn't made a difference in that. He is back to yelling at the tv, but no more punching. I just shut it off if he starts yelling.

I had my eye lasered Wed. and it is fine. I can actually see better now. I need to go take my shower and get the day started. Be kind to one another.






Tuesday, October 6, 2015

A lot going on with hubby. I'll be back as soon as I can.

This card is for my granddaughter made of just punch outs. Since I got everything out for Halloween, I decided to use up all my NBUS things and this was one of them. The hill is a die from Lawn Fawn.

See you soon, be kind to one another.


Saturday, October 3, 2015

I had to turn the furnace on yesterday. It got pretty chilly in the house so it was time. We also have a lot of wind so the patio chairs came inside too. It will warm back up next week for a while. The family will be here for Oct. birthdays tomorrow. Lots of fun, food and football.

Todays card is not stamped at all. It is a My Minds Eye sheet of punch outs and a snippet of paper I've used before. The bats are a rub on. It was quick and easy and one of my favorite cards. I love the sparkle of it. I did stamp a sentiment on the inside. These were all in my tub of Halloween stuff and since I am trying to use my supplies up I used them. The only thing I bought this year for Halloween is the Booyah set from Lawn Fawn and I HAD to have that because it is so cute. Otherwise since I have a whole plastic tub full of  "stuff" I couldn't justify buying anymore. But I did get several new things for fall and Christmas. I have two tubs of Christmas "stuff" but again Lawn Fawn got me!

I am entering this card in the http://www.chouxchouxpaperart.com/search?updated-max=2015-09-21T01:00:00-05:00&max-results=7. She has a Lawn Fawn gift certificate as a gift!!



To my friends on the east coast, be safe from all the rain and storms. To my friends in Oregon, my thoughts and prayers are with you for the sad tragedy.




Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Wow, was I impressed. I went to see my granddaughters dorm room yesterday and we had lunch. Her room is so big and has so much storage. They have bunks and a futon and foot stool that makes into a table. The whole other side of the room is all desk, large closets and above the whole unit is storage and their tv is there. It's right across the hall from the showers and laundry room. They have a nice kitchen down the hall and a great lounge where they can hang out. Makes me think young again.

Todays card uses non Halloween colors so it is different. It's also a mix of a Lockhart stamp, a Waltzingmouse stamp, a DeNami stamp, flocked paper (?) and inside a rub on from Verses Instant Expressions. I got carried away! I think I will enter it into the challenge at

http://www.chouxchouxpaperart.com/2015/09/challenge-1.html. There is so much talent there.
Be kind to one another.




Sunday, September 27, 2015

 I took the http://onlinecardclasses.com/watercolorEM/.  My favorite was the gelatos background. I have them and they are so easy. Todays's card is made with gelatos and a sticker from Stickabilities. It was a sale item with two sheets of stickers for 83 cents. Oh, I don't have a cents key on my keyboard anymore. I guess this is the first time I've noticed that. It's also the first time I've ever paid only cents for something! Be kind to one another.




Friday, September 25, 2015

My Friday gal is sick today so no one is coming. I cancelled my lunch with my neighbor and I'll be cleaning and hope to get a card made this afternoon. This card today uses Lawn Fawn stamps and a snippet of paper I used last year. I am going to pop over to http://pixiescraftyworkshop.blogspot.com/ and enter this card. Be kind to one another.

Greta has give me a link to http://www.chouxchouxpaperart.com/ to link up my card. Thank you, Greta.


Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Hubby is having issues with anger when he watches tv. He thinks those people are in his house and he is yelling and punching the tv. The Neurologist said to up his dosage of hallucination meds and see if that will help. Yesterday I did not turn on the tv at all. He sat on the couch with his snack and didn't mention it at all. He did tell the barber in the mirror that they had packed up and left. I say "barber" because that's who he thinks the man in the mirror is, the man who cuts his hair.

My girlfriend, Marilyn, came down last Monday. Normally we would go to lunch and a movie. I was waiting for the Go Docs to call me back so we just went to lunch at O'Charleys. After the lunch rush we had no need to rush and sat and talked for a long time. We hadn't been together for a long time, so it was nice to just visit. She brought me lovely flowers when she came in. She is so thoughtful and caring. Here are the flowers and here is the thank you card I sent her. That is My Minds Eye paper called Fancy That. It is just beautiful paper. Be kind to one another.





Saturday, September 19, 2015

We didn't wake up until 8 am this morning. It was so dark and rainy that Molly didn't know it was so late. She is my alarm clock and gets up as soon as it is light.  Not my preference!

We are now a member of Go Docs Go. They called at 4 pm Thurs. and said they would be there between 10 and 1. I said okay - when. She said tomorrow. Oh. They said they were coming for an evaluation to see if he was eligible. Two ladies came, one dr. and one assistant. She asked questions and typed in her tablet. Then the asst. took his blood pressure, listened to his heart. The other one cleaned out his ears and cut his toenails. Weighed him with their scales and said they would be back next month! Okay then. They will replace all his drs. unless I want him to still go to them. They will refill his meds, give flu shot, take blood and can do an ultra sound, xrays and EKG here at home. They will do wound care and post op care here also. So I am happy we are finally able to get some help for him here. He let them do whatever they wanted and was so good about it. The only drawback is that they call the day before and say they will be here the next day. They will also cancel if an emergency comes up.  That's okay if it is just a wellness visit. He did fall out of bed Thurs. night. It took a half hour to get him up again. I don't do it, he has to. It just takes a while for him to figure out what to do. Doesn't seem to get hurt so all is good.

This is the card I made for our son's birthday next month. This is the first time ever I am so far ahead! I used an embossing folder, viva gold in blue and lavender and of course, a crazy bird. I typed in the sentiment and used a Lawn Fawn bubble die. The inside says Go On and Celebrate from Mama Elephant. Be kind to one another.


Tuesday, September 15, 2015

I wanted to enter one more card into Darnell's NBUS today. This card is for my youngest granddaughter's birthday next month. I took the stamp out of it's packaging and stored it in a cd case because it is unmounted red rubber and I've had it a long time. I got it when my granddaughter was little, thinking I would make her a card with it when she got older. She will be 14 so I guess it's time! She is into bling so that's why all the jewels. See, that's what NBUS does. It makes you haul out things you've never used and give them love.  The pink and white paper is a snippet left over from Valentines Day cards so I am going over to Pixies Playground at http://pixiescraftyworkshop.blogspot.co.uk/ this week. Be kind to one another.


Sunday, September 13, 2015



Just to share a give away from Lisa's blog above at http://indymermaid.blogspot.com/. Wow, a fuse. If you don't know her you may want to stop in and say hello. Her cards are just beautiful with lots of detail and gorgeous flowers and ribbon. Be kind to one another.
Oh ladies, thank you so very much for your kind comments and caring about us. I didn't want to gross you out with the gory details but hubby did not have a UTI. At first I thought that was what was wrong and took a sample to the lab. They waited a week to see if the culture was okay and it was. They also ran one in the ER and it was okay. I have two different stories. ER said there was too much urine in the bladder and was causing constipation. Drained it and he did "go" when we got home. The Dr. Thursday said there was too much in the colon and pressing so he couldn't urinate. Since he wasn't doing either one I don't know who was right. The draining helped so maybe that was what was wrong. Now that he is better he still wants to go to bed between 3 and 4 pm and nods off during the day. He was his normal sweet self Friday when Katie came and has been okay since.  So I appreciate your help. A UTI was my first idea too. They are nothing to mess with, especially when you are older. I started a movie at 9 this morning for him and it is 9:30 and he is asleep.

I have a question for all of you. If you go in a craft or stamp store and see a card made up that you like and they tell you you can take a picture, does that mean it's okay to copy it? My thought is if they told you you can take a picture, they mean it's okay to make one like it. Or, are they saying make one similar? Since you don't know who made the card you can't give credit if you copy it. The card today is like one I saw in a stamp store. I fell in love with it because my granddaughter is in love with all things Paris, I took a picture and bought the paper there. I didn't have quite the same things  to make the card but it is close. I hope I don't get arrested. It is Graphic 45 papers and a Fiskars stamp set. The lady and stamps are popped up.  Be kind to one another.


Saturday, September 12, 2015

Wow, I think fall has entered the picture. It is so chilly this morning. Not enough for heat but enough to wear long sleeves and socks.

We have had a downturn in hubby's condition. He is talking to his image in the mirror every day. He thinks it is the guy who cuts his hair and he tells him stories and just laughs and talks. I stood next to him and asked who the lady was and he looked in the mirror, then me, then in the mirror and said he didn't know who she was! Oh dear. He yells at the TV and was punching the screen because he didn't like the guy in the program. He has done that several times. Sat. he was in a lot of pain and can't tell me what is wrong so I tried to get him in the car but he didn't understand how to do that so I had to call an ambulance to take him to the ER. Long story but they catheterized him and we came home. Told us to follow up with Dr. on Tue. We couldn't get in until Thurs. and he was so mean and hateful to the nurse and the Dr. That is a first for him. He will be like that with me but never anyone else. Wouldn't let them examine him or speak after he told them he didn't want to be there and was going home. It was awful. We got home, had lunch and at noon he went to bed and stayed there until the next morning. He keeps saying I've been gone and he had no food and didn't know where I was when I have been here the whole time. I have a call in to Go Docs Go. If we qualify they will send a Dr. to our home when he is sick and once a month to take vitals and just check on him. I am afraid he will have something wrong and I will miss it because he can't tell me. This is a slippery slope we are on now. Sorry to go on and on but that is where I have been instead of here.

This card today is one I made to send to my granddaughter in college. I think she will enjoy it and laugh. The family was here Sunday to celebrate the birthdays and we did have a great time. Hubby went to bed at 4:50 and slept right through all the noise we were making. This is a My Favorite Things stamp set and it is so cute. The stencil is also MFT. I am going to enter it at NBUS, http://www.djkardkreations.com/ too since it is new. Be kind to one another.


Tuesday, September 8, 2015



Today is the first day of NBUS at Darnell's blog here http://www.djkardkreations.com/. My card is using a Penny Black stencil that I inked with Distress Inks. Then I got ink from my hand on the right side of the card so I used the Papertrey rick rack die to cut that part off! The ladybugs are stickers that I got a long time ago. I haven't put a sticker on anything for as long as I can remember! It's good to use them now. The stencil and rick rack die and stickers are all NBUS.

I'm so happy for Darnell. She is the great lady that brought so many of us together in blogland to meet. She is sweet, funny and I love visiting her blog for a smile every day. Please send good vibes and prayers for her and her hubby today. She is going to have her hands full! Be kind to one another.